2010

I wanna say this year will be different but will it really. I don't believe in the fake resolutions I believe that if u dont bust ya ass for what u want u will never get it. Maybe thats why I'm still renting instead of owning thats probably why I'm still figuring out what makes me happy and who needs to be deleted from my life and who deserves to remain. I had big dreams and hell even high hopes but somewhere along the way shit got blurry and it felt like my ass was in quick sand. Im crackin up because thats exactly what it feels like. I never stop moving, my speed however goes from 8 to 80 and I wonder why I don't have all that I want. It can't be because I don't deserve it cause I do. I've stood up and by certain people who probably didn't have a clue that I was just trying to keep them from falling into that space of dame why didn't I listen. It hurts when u see people you care about not doing a dame thing to better themselves. Sometimes I feel like I can't say a dame thing because I'm not where I wanna be. But I think the idea is that u just keep movin and eventually you'll get where u need to be. I'm tryin to be more consistent and this change started back in 09 and had nothing to do with New Years.