Sometime you get a moment of pure happy not half and half, no fakeness, just real happy. I had some today no big money spent just real quality time without the fighting and fussing. We have our moments but at the end of the day I know we both want the same end result. Happy. Sometimes in the midst of bills and kids acting a fool we lose the happy and it gets replaced by door slamming and hurt feelings. I know that its never a time I cant talk to him, and most of the time I cant talk if I'm really made I need the cool down period. Which he gives me now and its makes all the difference in the world. The older we grow together the more we know how to handle each other. It was definitely an learned thing. I laugh when I think about how crazy we both were a couple years back. Married by law but acting the complete opposite but we made it through and on Monday we celebrated seven yrs of marriage. It may not seem long to others but for us its a major accomplishment because we are both in a place that we both would have never believed because of the pain and let down we put each other through. We knew our limits and we surely pushed them to the max. I'm better today then I was last year. I'm secure not worried about what he's doing or where he's going. I'm good and it's been awhile but I'm here now and I have no plans on returning to the unhappy insecure place. I know real when I have it ...not perfect..not storybook but real and I'm good with that.
