Different how????

Things are different now. Our topic  of conversation, the tones in which we speak to one another, the way we touch one another, hell the way we fight. I guess I’ve matured a lot, no scratch that I have. I realize he’s not superman and yes he does and will make mistakes. I think years ago I left no room for error so at any given moment if I felt like something wasn’t to my liking I was off to my mother’s house. Not fairytale wonderful or over the moon stuff. Just some of that good good. (Seriously) I’m not into painting fake ass pictures. I’m guilty of being too honest but anyway. I’m just reflecting and I’m thrilled at the growth that’s taken place. There was a time where if he wasn’t paying attention to me or if he was talking shit I’d take whatever he was eating and throw it right out the window. Crazy right but in all honesty I was a wired one. There were days when he would try to jump out the car while I was at a stop sign because I was getting on his nerves so bad, and I would then beg him to get back into the car so I could continue my shit talking session. Just so I’m not the only one sounding crazy during our breakups he used to come by my house and try to fight anybody I happended to be spending a little time with. This was before marriage I guess he knew I was his before I did. He used to avoid arguments or confrontations during the day but around 2am in the morning he wanted to address a couple of things. Those were the days when I thought I was gonna have to 302 his ass. Who wants to talk about anything at 2 in the morning? Needless to say I always lost those battles because I was to tired and to pissed to really go deep on him the way I would have had this been a conversation that took place during normal fighting hours. Now when I talk (No more wining for me) he listens even if he doesn’t care or agree he knows that just appearing to give a dame means something to me. When we fight I only curse ½ as much as I used to and he doesn’t jump out the car anymore. No more 2am sessions we deal with issues as they arise. We learned that things left alone and not dealt with can become cancerous and be the death of our marriage.  Not leaps and bounds but I’m ok with the crawl as long as we are crawling forward