tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277001393121384012011-11-27T15:42:49.473-08:00I'm learning alot of hard lessons but I continue to move forwardHighly favoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02131566611536887727noreply@blogger.comBlogger311100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-727700139312138401.post-62623605226867493562011-01-01T17:43:00.000-08:002011-01-01T17:43:57.611-08:00

Well I'm in this place of WTF happened again. I love my kids truly I do. But I also love sleeping late and the fact that my kids are potty trained and can communicate without crying. Well guess what I'm having baby number 3. I almost laugh as I'm typing I don't know how I'm going to go back to diapers and daycare that's like $600 a month. Tommy is thrilled and can't wait. I wonder is that because

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Things are different now. Our topic  of conversation, the tones in which we speak to one another, the way we touch one another, hell the way we fight. I guess I’ve matured a lot, no scratch that I have. I realize he’s not superman and yes he does and will make mistakes. I think years ago I left no room for error so at any given moment if I felt like something wasn’t to my liking I was off to my

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He's only 11 and with a Gods grace he'll make to be an adult.These last couple of weeks have been very trying for me. My oldest has always been well mannered and always ontop of his game. But things are falling apart piece by piece. He has three detentions this week 1 for not doing his homework in more than one class.2nd was for not following school policies 3rd was for throwing a test in the

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I can appreciate real God given talents. An acquired skill is something you can recognize from afar but a gift that somebody is born with it's undeniable.  I've heard people sing I've seen art come to life from a plain canvas. I've read stories that made me feel like I was there. I've watched people perform and some actually belong in the spotlight so that there gifts can be shared with the world

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Sometime you get a moment of pure happy not half and half, no fakeness, just real happy. I had some today no big money spent just real quality time without the fighting and fussing. We have our moments but at the end of the day I know we both want the same end result. Happy. Sometimes in the midst of bills and kids acting a fool we lose the happy and it gets replaced by door slamming and hurt

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He thinks she doesn’t know how rough things are but he’s wrong she can see thru hurt and disappointment that he has inside. She’s not a mind reader but can see that he’s neither who he once was nor the person he wanted to be. How and why did he end up there? He’s taking his family through hell and back because of his short comings. They were there to help and support him but somewhere along the

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I wanna say this year will be different but will it really. I don't believe in the fake resolutions I believe that if u dont bust ya ass for what u want u will never get it. Maybe thats why I'm still renting instead of owning thats probably why I'm still figuring out what makes me happy and who needs to be deleted from my life and who deserves to remain. I had big dreams and hell even high hopes

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Sometimes the fire that burns inside me is like a raging inferno but others I'm content not doing a dame thing and could care less about 2mrw. What happened why from one extreme to the next makes a girl wonder. Sometime I wanna be super wifey cook clean and tryin to meet his every need and then other times I feel like get it ya dame self. Sometime I wanna ripe his clothes off and get a quickie

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I've come to the conclusion that its easier to tell the truth. I guess lying is a true art form lets face it u have to keep track of who u told what to and keep the stories straight. The mere thought of the dumbness just cracks me up when I think about people and all the manipulation that goes on and most of the time it's obvious as hell. Most of us aren't that exciting and I'm OK with that but

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I didn't get into the nursing program I wanted and did that hurt so dang on bad. I cried and cried for what seemed like hours. Eventually I got it together and started thinking about the reason I didn't get in was it my science GPA or the placement testing where the hell did ya girl drop the ball. So I called the school and asked and she told me that I should apply to Jefferson Nursing program

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My oldest boy got into the school that I really love and I am so excited.He's going into the 6th grade and I want him to start thinking about college.no I'm not psyco mom but I know the significance of a decent education. If I was more focused back then all the things I tryin to now would have been done and I could have been enjoying the fruits of my labor but now I'm just planting them. I want

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I'm feeling alone in a house full of my familyI'm angry when we should all be laughingmy moods are all wrong and jacked up.one min hot one min cold..Who know maybe tomorrow will be the place I find that one thing thats gonns turn my funk all around.A girl can pray can't she..........thank you...........AMEN

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I can crawl into bed and feel safe and comfort which is given from my hubby. My hard entreuprenueareal hubby. He works so hard and worries.He need not worry because I know that He has a God given gift that will provide for his family. This time in our family is a major one because this is ground zero for us and we are rising at a speed that could be only Gods strength. The only difference this

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Start nursing schoolQuit my jobLose 40 poundsTravel W/ hubby to Jamaica,Bahamas Go to CancunLove like never beforeSpiritual fast for 1 weekVisit Uncle in TexasWalk in the rain (not worring about my hair)Develop a closer relationship w/ my biological DadBuy a house that I am in LOVE with Family vacation to the SOUTHGo to a musicalVisit the Grand CanyonContinue to be supportive of hubby businessPay

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If anyone would have asked me this time last year if I'd still be married today my answer would have been a heck no for sure. Well maybe a h#ll no. We had divorce papers notaried and our own thought out custody arrangement, so when I say we were thru we both believed it at the time..We tried everything we could first it was the fighting and yelling then we moved onto the silence then couseling

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Tonight around 10pm God put together a group that was made especially for this nite) we went underground to feed the homeless. Sure I knew they existed but something happened when I saw first hand the amount of young people who were sleeping on the concrete and dumping trash cans so they could use it as a blanket. We gave out food and prayer to all who needed it. The story gets better I found

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I feel like a broken record I keep going thru the same motions and certain situations seem like de-ja vu. I want better and I dont want to be angry but dame it the past hurts like hell. U seem to move on with your life like its all good but what about me. I still cry. I still hurt. I still an embarrised.Where do my feeling become vaild? Oh maybe when I act like I'm 19 and break out the windows to

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I'm the oldest of my brothers and sister and the relationship I have with my family now seems strained and it hurts. Not just a little but sometimes I dont feel whole. Maybe its becasue I grew up in a very close nit family. I used to talk to my mother almost 3-4 times a day and now its close to never. When the fall out took place the reasoningn seemed justified and well desrved but now not so

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MY PRINCE & RIDE OR DIE KID

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I wish my grandmother could've lived long enough to see an African American man elected as the president of the United States. I've never been ashamed of my race but there was a since of inferiority that I didn't realized existed until I heard the words Barack Obama is our 44th president of the United States. This is the same country that enslaved us and over time convinced people like myself

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MY BABY BOY

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JealousyI never knew just how deepit ran.Recently I've experienced lots of painful growing and I've noticedthat people want what Ihave. Is it the size of family? Maybe my paycheck..no maybeits the fact that my hair curls up when most chicks napp up..It could bethat I'm married and dont have to play house I have a real (legal) husband. He'snot perfect but I must say I do have papers on him and

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Why does it seem like nobody cares anymore. I'm from a huge family and at one time we were very close and now its a mess. I feel like it's just me and my cousin that seems to give a dame. If my grand were only here..none of this bulls#% would be taking place. We were raised to believe that when things got rough u always had your family but it's not the same. We used to have huge bar-b ques and

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The way I was raised family took care of family reguardless.But itseemstheolder I get the more my family member dont seem to care about one another. i mean Dame ifya brother is sick nurse him back (PERIOD)

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How many times until you realize that its not going to work. How many tears shed, chairs thrown, yelling until your hoarse and shear embarrassment until u realize that its over and that certain things are better left alone. When you've given all u got and then someones given u an okay half ass' d effort its a real insult because I know and its seems that I'm not alone when I say I've been with

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Today I took the boys to church and it wasn't easy. Joshua wan't a happy camper at all. Screaming and yelling the entire way...did I leave him in childrens church..ABSOLUTLY..When I picked him up after service he was a changed kid ( for the moment of course) he was so happy with his handful of projects he'd made during service. Its those little moments that make me so proud to be a mommy. Just

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To move forward you have to let go and forgive. Things that have happened in the past shouldn't guide or determine your future. Rather you should follow the path laid before you by God. i;m learning that road isn't all that easy but I'm positive its the road thats best for me. I'm learning to trust people again, you cant let one person change your heart off of some craziness. I'm blessed and

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I've been told that healing depends on your faith..Today I witnessed first hand the power of prayer and the deliverance that comes along with it and believe me when I tell u it took my breath away.Something that I've struggled with for more than a year was taking away by the power of prayer. If you don't believe God for a miracle why would you expect one. I know that God wants to hear all of my

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It's times like these that I wonder about real love and where does it actually live. i know things aren't like the movies but I'm sure it gets better than this. My heart is conflicted and it's really making me dizzy.

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How do you separate your happiness from that of your family's? After awhile I think it just all blends in together. At times a girl can begin to feel selfish because if shes not happy& she can't be of much help to her family.

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